April Showers

The month of April is normally known for the rain it brings.....hence April Showers. In my life, the month of April is synonymous with showers of tears. Three phenomenal women that I love dearly have birthdays this month. My Mom, my paternal Grandma, and my Bestie. They also are no longer here with me. My Mama and my Grandma both passed in April as well-Mama in 1997 and Grandma in 2004. I always try to remain busy on those days so I can't "think" about what the date is.  On the 10th, My Ma would have been 62, Grandma would have been 82 on the 8th and Tee would have been 42 on the 23rd. I can still recall the last conversation I had with each of them like it was yesterday.

I went to my Ma's house and I got some pictures, she asked why did I try to steal her pictures. I told her that I just wanted to make some copies. She said well make copies of all of my pictures that you have stolen and give them back. She then picked up Cherrelle and told her you are a just a doll! That's why I call you Granny's doll. I then told her we would be back on her birthday, which was in four days....she passed 2 days later......

I called my Grandma and asked how she was feeling, because she had become bed ridden by then. She said like she always did...I feel ok. I then asked her was it OK to come and see her on that Thursday because it was going to be warm. Let me explain....I had just gave birth to Jannee' about 2 weeks before and Grandma was like the GESTAPO when it came to going out before those 6 weeks were up. She didn't want me to catch pneumonia or have a "set back".....to this day, I am really not sure what a "set back" is....I told her that it was going to be 70 degrees, so I should be fine and I really wanted her to see Jannee'. She told me just to wait and she knew she was beautiful because she was one of hers. That Thursday, I did get to see Grandma, just not like I wanted....she passed that day.....

My last conversation with  my Bestie was a short one.  She told me that she was feeling a little down. I immediately told her no worries, everything would be fine! She said to me...you are right! I told her that I loved her to pieces and she said I love your ass to pieces right back...she passed later that night......

Happy Birthday Ladies! I have decided to celebrate all month!! <3

Spread love to everyone.....and if you see me....give me a hug.....I could use one!


Much Love....Just Gen

My People-Part 1

I must admit, this blogging thing isn't that bad.....
  

Everybody has favorites. Favorite color, hair styles, foods, cars, etc.  My favorite dessert is cheesecake, my favorite colors are pink and red, etc.  My blog subjects for the next few posts are dedicated to some of my favorite people who just happen to be business owners.
My Favorite Dress Boutique-Gorgeous Emerald-owned by my sister/best friend Raven Cox

My Favorite Dessert Maker-Angel Cakes owned by Angela Lott

My Favorite Hatter-Top Notch Hats and Accessories owned by Jerome (Jerry) Lynch

My Favorite Bath and Body Products-Good Scents Oils owned by Regina Earvin 

My Favorite Women Entrepreneur Support Group-WEA, Inc.-Nat'l President-Yolanda Lamar-Wilder

And of course: My Favorite Candles-Partylite-Gen Jones, Consultant

 Please feel free to click on our links.  Maybe we'll become one of your favorites, too.

Words Pt.2

Looks like the story will end here....Saying sorry does not always cut it. Sometimes sorry is not enough! You should choose your words carefully, once they are spoken, you can't take them back. I accept apologies, but I don'thave to accept you anymore. I refuse to accept "I'm sorry" anymore as a cure all from ANYBODY! That is all.......cue Cee-Lo! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZXvxxnmF10

Words

Pastor Holmes (RIP) always told us to find the good in people.  I try....really I do.  For some, you need a magnifying glass to find the good...LBS.  I was told a couple of weeks to ago that I need to snap out of it (as I was grieving for my Bestie).  If I had been my normal self, I would have gave the person a barrage of not so nice words. READ: Cursed out!! Instead I just responded that I didn't know that there was a time table and when I do snap out then maybe I'll call you back. I am progressing towards feeling better, I am laughing again and the anxious feeling is gone....somewhat.  Have I called them back? NO. Got a couple of text messages...."Are you mad about something?" My response: I don't feel like talking.  So today was a new day.  I explained to them, via text, how I felt when they gave me their Dr. Phil of how I should feel....FOH!!! I felt liberated after that.  I refuse to be held captive by someone else's BS. People are in our lives for reasons and seasons, I guess it is the end of that season.  Na Na Na....Na Na Na...Hey Hey Hey....Good Byyyyyyyyyeeeee!!  Now that just made me laugh out loud for real! Welp....that's all for now. Gotta get ready for the gig....get in and get out.  It's party time for my sister Raven tonite-Happy Birthday again! Just remember that words can hurt....use them wisely.

I'm trying out a new way to blog...via my phone! Let's see if this actually works....

Something Special

I have been listening to a lot of Will Downing lately.  He is one of my favorite artists! His music has a message, mostly about love.  I wanted to share one of my favorites with you.....make sure you listen to the words....

To My Bestie.....

I can't believe that I have blogged in 4 months, well yes I can! LOL I am not a writer like Raven or Thelma (my Bestie) so that's my excuse.  My last blog was written right before I went to OSR-Old School Reunion at IU.  OSR is held during Homecoming Weekend and the activties are geared toward the Minority Students.  *Side Note* Thanks Ruben for making it a yearly event! It was also the last OSR that I will spend with my Bestie! I wrote her a letter last week and I FINALLY have the strength to share it! I love u Tee and you knew that! We ended our conversations with : I love you Bestie! <3
Tee....I am not ready for this at all.  I know there is a reason, but I don't know it yet and am I am not ready to know.  I keep playing CSI with this...trying to look for signs that you were ill or trying to say good-bye.  You have been a daily part of my life since I met you in 1987 at IU.  We have shared so many memories. I remember how the Police came to our door every other day because we played NWA loud as ever! The best memory was when your water broke on the damn couch!! I started crying and called my Grandma.  After she told me to hang up the phone and help you, I asked you what was I supposed to do! You said do something, but yo black ass betta boil no damn water!!  Laughing thru tears at that one.  The guy that I told you about, I'm keeping him just like you told me to do! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITHOUT U??  Don't worry about the boys...I mean the twins, I keep forgetting they are grown....They know that their TT Gen got them and so does everyone else. I know you're saying put the damn pen down with your ole sentimental ass! :) Even though I am the crier in our circle of girlfriends, I promise to be strong for them! Especially your Twin.....I love you Bestie~ <3

Thelma Herlena Shaw
           "Lena"
April 23, 1969-February 12, 2011


I promise to write in my blog more, Tee.........